To anyone reading this - sorry for going MIA for, eep, over a month. I've kind of been having that breakdown I was heading straight for before coronavirus reached our sunny shores. I'm still not 100% but I'm definitely in a better place than I was. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time right now and make sure Marianna is fed, watered and educated. Anything else accomplished on top of that is a bonus.
I had a trial run on MS Teams for full council this week which ended in the decision I'll go into the civic centre and chair from there. I don't know if it's my internet connection or my laptop - I suspect a bit of both - but trying to use Teams is like using a webcam c. 1996. So very slow and so very glitchy. Of course it's a total open secret that I was stepping down from all chairing at the AGM, but coronavirus had other ideas. Everything but essential business has been postponed so my dreams of quiet backbencherdom will have to wait a little longer!
The entire situation has tested my resolve, I've got to be honest. I've always felt that, while I disagree intensely with many people in politics, it's a result of different understandings of facts and figures and what the best way forward is. But watching the news over the last few weeks has really eroded that. What matters most to the Government is protecting their own best interests. I mean, you got things wrong. Everyone did. Just admit it and ask for forgiveness and co-operation as we move into the future. But to stand in front of the world's media and announce that you're proud of how well you've handled the crisis.
I feel like I've been stupid and naive, and therefore complicit in allowing a corrupt system to keep on trucking. It's not a nice feeling. :/
Sigh, anyway. Yesterday Marianna and I followed a YouTube tutorial to do some painting. Obviously their's looked amazing. Mine was... not as awful as I expected it would be. High praise, indeed!